tonight I underwent nearly 2 1/2 hours of excruciating pain, simply for my idealistic sense of beauty. It hurt beyond description, but here we go.

I am vibrating with pure terror
still as ice and melting with the pain of it all
digging claws into my skin
nails drilling away into my veins
time creeps then canters
crawls away as I bite through my lips in
an attempt to stave away the regrets
and questions I still have
was it a good idea
will I forget
why it is I'm doing this
or will it last on forever along with
my body in some shape or another simply
catching stars in palms and letting
the petals fall from the limbs
where they no longer belong