love me, love me.
say you do.
let me fly away
with you.

we are creatures
of the wind.

wild is the wind.

give me more
than
one caress
to
satisfy this
hungriness.

we are creatures
of the wind.

wild is the wind.

you touch me...
I hear the sound
of mandolins,
baby.

you kiss me...
with your kiss
my life
begins.

like a leaf
clings
to a tree,

baby, please
cling to me.

we are creatures
of the wind.

wild is the wind.

you touch me...
I hear the sound
of mandolins,

and

you kiss me...
with your kiss
my life
begins.


I heard that song covered by Cat Power for the first time a few years ago off an album my father had given me. When I heard it, I wanted to cry, but I couldn't. I was made of stone, and even with all the cracks running through me, I did not break. Back then, I couldn't afford it. Can I afford it now?

I am such a strong person. I can handle this... I can overcome!

Next Semester Schedule:
-Weight Training (at fucking eight in the morning)
-Nature of Mathematics D:
-Fiction Writing Workshop
-Queer Fiction
-WI Intro to Poetry
-Advanced Poetry Writing?

I might drop that 8 a.m. weight training class if I manage to get into Advanced Poetry Writing, which I most likely will. I really would like to get back into weight training, but I think expecting myself to wake up previous to eight would be a little unrealistic. Maybe. Or maybe I can get back into the habit of waking up ridiculously early and just taking bunches of naps when I'm not doing anything. Ehhh. We will see, because as of right now... I just need to get my shit together.

What I Need to Do for College:
-speak with professors concerning what I need to do to manage a D average (so I can at least come back next semester)
-make a list of work that needs to be done
-do the "ransom work," as my mother likes to call it
-if "ransom work" is completed, do whatever else I can
-FUCKING GO TO CLASS.

What I Need to Do Otherwise:
-take ALL medications (both day and night)
-eat and drink well regularly
-get some exercise
-quit smoking when I can
-set up appointments with a new therapist
-write write write and write some more.